Winter Vacation Updates

My winter vacation has been wonderful so far! I can't say enough how great it is to be back in Las Vegas, and with family. For me classes start back up on the 3rd of January, which is a day I also have a huge test! So I've spent a lot of time in my bedroom studying. I would post more, but really nothing too eventful has happened... Anxiety hasn't been much of an issue for me thus far (ha once I got off the flight!), I do still get those little bouts of nervousness when I realize how long I've been anxiety free, but that normally happens anytime I'm anxiety free for too long.

I guess one time that really sticks out for me was visiting a friends house. I went over there to say hi to he and his sisters, his mom wasn't home and the girls suggested I wait a little while for her to get home so she could say hi! Up until that point I forgot about anxiety, I had no anxiety going over there, but when it came to having to wait there for her and her husband to get home I suddenly wanted out of the situation and felt trapped! Silly, I know! Nothing big came of it, and the feeling eventually went away. I wonder why I didn't feel anxious when the greeting was on my own terms? But suddenly when I wasn't "in control" of the situation the anxiety kicked in, this is a pattern I see a lot!

While I've been in Las Vegas I had a chance to visit one of my favorite stores- "Herbally Grounded" This is a store I absolutely LOVE! I went shopping and bought quite a few new herbs/vitamins/products that are supposed to be helpful for those suffering with anxiety/panic disorder and some I already love- Hopefully in one of these next posts I'll be able to share some of them! :)

Thoughts on flying!

So today I fly out to Las Vegas. I'm going "home" to visit family for the holidays! I'll be there for 10 days.. Louie pup will be coming with me. I've flown soo soo many times growing up but to this day absolutely hate it. I don't feel like it ever gets any easier for me, I dread flying! I don't know exactly where this came from, what I'm afraid of, or what exactly it is about flying that I dislike so much? But I really don't like it! I guess what I'm most terrified of is the feeling of "falling" being up that high. I've watched one too many scary airplane crash documentaries to feel safe! Although I do know the statistics, and flying is the safest way to travel... I was thinking about bringing the computer to update from the plane, but remembered I have to leave it for my husband (who has to stay behind and work!)... So I will try to update from my cell phone? Hopefully I'll be able to add photos? Might be rather short! :) Luckily I have alprazolam (generic xanax) if things get too bad otherwise I'll try not taking anything and see how it goes- Really would rather not feel "groggy" the rest of the night once I get there!