Presentation Tomorrow!

Well today we found out that we will all be expected to give a 10 minute presentation tomorrow! To be honest,  I am TERRIFIED! I absolutely hate public speaking of any kind. Before signing up for this school  (these classes) I made sure there were no public speaking requirements and was assured there wouldn't be anything like this. I mean I know I'm going to have to do some sort of public speaking eventually, but wanted to get back into the school swing of things a little more slowly. Oh well, I have a presentation tomorrow and am going to have to figure out some way to get through this.

My fear of public speaking isn't a little one. I have had too many awful experiences to just be able to "wing it" without medication, someday I have hope I'll be able to, but right now? No way! So tomorrow will be the day I try the Propranolol! Yikes! Today I took a quarter of a pill to see how I felt.. I didn't really notice anything and after reading various message boards online I'm unsure if a quarter of the pill will do it for me? I don't know why I'm so cautious/ afraid to take the whole 10mg, (Yes I do, because it's a blood pressure medication and the possibility of any type of adverse reaction scares me!)  then again taking the 10mg sounds better than getting up there and realizing I didn't take enough! :) We'll see. Oh yes and I have one other technique in mind to help me get through this- I'm near-sighted so I wear contact lenses to see anything farther than 5ft in front of me- I figure if I can't see anyone I'm presenting to it may make it a little better? So I will take my contacts out...Who knows if this will help, but it's worth a try!

I know there are going to be many many occasions in the remainder of my schooling where I will have to present in front of the class. To be honest this was what kept me from finishing school sooner. But I figured I have got to figure out a way to get past this...and hopefully I will. :) I'm trying to stay positive, haha but to be quite honest even writing about the presentation tomorrow makes my heart pound! Will be sure to post my experience whether negative or positive, but keeping my fingers crossed it's a positive one!